So yeah... As I've noticed breaks tend to get depressing towards the end of them. Often I'm dying to go home when a quarter is over or whatnot, and then soon after being home I'm always reminded of why I don't like going home. I mean it's stacked stuff that makes it so. Much of which I shan't bother to figure out or go into otherwise I'll just end right back up in a shitty mood. No thank you, I like not being depressed.
Anyway, so today was really getting to that breaking point. I was really getting to my "omg I'm loosing my mind" point. I mean I was running, well skipping technically, whatever. Down the hallway and going "eeee!" Yeah, I officially lost my mind at that point. This evening got to be much of a debate. My friend Matt was organizing folks together to go hang out in SF tonight and running into tomorrow. (I believe they're getting a hotel room or something.) Anyway, so my conundrdum was to go up and kick it in the city, or go to the ice rink for some skate and shoot. (That's skating around and shooting pucks around. Just a bit of warmup/practice.) Well due to me being indecisive, I ended up being at home and going for the hockey alternative. As it was I was already planning to go up to SF Saturday for most of the day.
Also last night I meet up with my friend Rishi from high school and Stephen came along as well. We just kicked it in a sports bar for awhile and got some drinks, well I got one gin martini, but anyway. And I got to catch a bit of a sharks game, which really got me sparked back into hockey. Which I think is what is driving me to want to go for the skate and shoot time. I'm not going for the pick up hockey timeslot tonight as I'm really physically exhauseted. (I have no idea why, but I am.) So playing a game, not such a good idea. Plus I haven't played in well over a year, I should start back into it with shooting to make sure my shot is still something decent.
Anyway, so that's my plan for most of the weekend. Now new years I'm still conflicted, I really want to go this event at the Mezzanine but I also would like to not part with $60. Tho I will for sure be going to that place in the future, they've got an AMAZING sound system. I was reading about it, wowowowowow. They've got two, each one is over 20,000 watts.
Anyway so that's that. I think I'm going to push for a bar-hopping idea for new years. Whatever, we'll see. I'm taking the "I just need me time." right now, and really that IS what I need. And I'm not talking about being alone, but doing something by myself and something I like. I mean hell, this could be a run around the block for all I care. Most importantly I need to not be in THIS house (my parents.) So some hockey stuff tonight will help, and SF tomorrow will as well. Really what I ultimately need is to get back to my equipment so I can at least DJ for myself, and also Tahoe. I need to go snowboarding. The lack of money is of all things depressing me the most.
It kinda sucks that most of the stuff I enjoy doing are also some of the most expensive things as well. Also tangent, I haven't read thru my previous entry. I don't feel like dealing w/ my darker side of logic or whatever. Oh yeah! DJ'ing! So I'm sooooo fucking stoked as bunch of new records I ordered arrived today. Included in them in the currently "available only on limited release promo" is Stonebridge's latest track "SOS" which is amazing. And I'VE GOT A COPY BITCH! Anyway, so yeah need to mix some, and mostly I need to actually get some gigs. This quarter, I swear I will.
Also earlier today I had to install this vent cover, and we had to readjust it and shit. Just felt gratifying, given I had to saw the wood cover down some and shit. And well it involved power tools. I'm not saying this is a big deal for me. I know my way around a shop and know a hacksaw from a hammer. It's just that I don't do it that often anymore and I think it's the little reminders of that I know this this that's gratifying in some way. Given I've come to discover that most people, well can't do this shit.
Sooooo how's it I went from batshit insane/depressed to much perkier? Simple, Muse. Yep the band. I got an impulse to listen to them, and I threw on the latest album, I think "Supermassive Black Hole" and just went from there. "Map Of The Problematique" is really the rockin' one that got things going. Gowad I love that band, sooo fucking much. Between them and Green Day, I dunno what I'd do. Oh what the fuck am I saying, ABBA, can't forget them! Ok, correction between those three.. I've got my get me outta whatever set. Now to make a playlist with all three... That'd be interesting.
So yeah I'm just rambling like nuts... wow. Anyway, I think I'll go to MOMA tomorrow, cuz I think it's the kinda artsy calm internal thing I need. Yeah and snow, and eErope. Fucking a I wanna go over there sooooo badly. Anyway. That's all on to rock to "Hysteria." Wow this entry was random, and long.